It’s December, and I go to Mission Plaza
to try on different lives. Inside the church,
I inhale whispered prayers and notice how
others do it. One woman kisses the floor,
another simply kneels. I try on being
proud Hugo who stands to recite a prayer
while his father videos, and then I’m the bored boy
who poses for a photo by the crèche. Outside,

the carousel spins while I stand near the fountain
where I become the girl tipping her green hat as she
rides the bronze bear like a bronco before trying
to reach the water below. A mustached father
takes pictures; then five siblings appear,

including a toddler named Mico. They speak
Spanish, place the boy on the bear, and for
photos, yell, Cheese, Mico, Cheese! This is
the family I want to go home with. I watch until
they leave, and like Santa looking back after
delivering a gift, the mustached dad waves to me.

By Jeanie Greensfelder

Jeanie Greensfelder served as the San Luis Obispo County poet laureate during 2017 and 2018. Her poems have been published at American Life in Poetry, Writer’s Almanac, and Poetry Foundation’s Poem of the Day; in the anthologies “Paris, Etc.” and “Pushing the Envelope: Epistolary Poems”; and in the journals Miramar, Thema, Askew, Persimmon Tree, and others. Her books include “Biting the Apple,” “Marriage and Other Leaps of Faith,” and “I Got What I Came For.”